Sunday, January 2, 2011

BARELY ALIVE and rarely caring but FREE AT LAST

Hello World..

First of all I want to let you all know that I AM, infact, alive.

After an extremely embarassing b/p and emergency 2am surgery for a colitis of the small intestine...
I was court ordered into an 8 week stay in a hospital in the US.

I don't even have the energy to continue typing right now, and I will probably be sent back to the psyche ward if I am caught on here.. However, I will be back home next week (hopefully without a tube) and my blog will be updated once again..

Thank you so much everyone for your emails of concern and support..
I am NOT recovered by any means. I know that "recovery" will never be an option for me, although I commend those that DO find the high road and the strength to take it..

My mind is a complete fog right now due to medications, food, lack of sleep, and just general madness of spending YET ANOTHER Christmas in a hospital bed...

I could not be more thankful to be free, I can't wait to be high on hungry once again...

much love to you all,
xx constant


  1. this is terrible, i hope everything goes well for you though. keep safe

  2. Oh God. I'm so glad that you are reasonably okay! :[ You need to look after yourself, babe. I really hope things work out for you.

  3. Hope things go well for you, stay safe!

  4. I'm really glad to hear you'll be out soon, I hope you've made a full recov from your surgery,
    please keep us posted, i was really concerned when you were gone

  5. I hope you're still out there are doing all right.